day 4: Baddha Padmasana

i had a dream where i was getting a tattoo on my left forearm/upper inner arm. it was the background & border of a holy art work - the light blue of the sky, lotuses, a golden ornate border. the deity & other details were to be added. i was so excited for it to be filled in, as i was looking down at my arm imagining what was to come. when i awoke, i distinctly knew that the dream was relating to my life, my practice, my future self. i was aware of the importance that my left arm was the arm with the tattoo.

today i did the pose with a friend; there was something added to the practice by having another share this with me. i felt so secure, so supported while doing bound lotus today. safe. held. i didn't want to come out of it. i felt as if i was pouring upon the floor, melted. i felt as in i was in a womb again, limbs twisted up with no room to move but completely at peace and feeling surrounded by only goodness, darkness, silence.

i pulled an angel card from Kimberly Marooney's deck and received Ongkanon (i laughed, because it sounds so much mike my name). it was relevant, as always. a process already happening, and perfecting itself: exploring feelings, going to the heart of resentments, being clear about the recent past and deciding what it is i want in the aftermath of my life leveled to ground zero and building back up again.

http://books.google.com/books?id=QVXrV8C2NToC&pg=PA141&lpg=PA141&dq=Ongkanon&source=bl&ots=IpPLVhEbY9&sig=THiZcPrVG-KTpk_M0ZcEgFDYNe4&hl=en&ei=um3gTIS7GoSClAe3qa2mAw&sa=X&oi=book_result&ct=result&resnum=10&ved=0CFEQ6AEwCQ#v=onepage&q=Ongkanon&f=false