Friday, December 3, 2010

day 22: Baddha Padmasana


Baddha Padmasana becoming such a part of the daily flow it seems to almost disappear, like breathing. the impact of the practice is simmering to subtlety: deep, vital, silently working.

the day launched in joyousness, filled with anticipation for the activities that would fill it. an intense need to focus was revealed; many things have been jumping in front of me pulling for my attention. focused on the tasks: research, e-mails, meditation, talks, time management, time for music, time for work, time to write. an enormous endeavor to push through low tides of energy & interference to meet the needs of the day. the effort was met with reward.

i hugged someone who needed it, generous with the warmth ample within, easily poured from me. sharing this way felt useful, as if i was born for the simple task of giving.

the evening spent indulging in good food with sweet people, nibbling greens from the garden & hours in a kitchen cleaning, prepping & creating life filled food. the reggae bhakti music danced between mashers & tubs & glass and latex gloved hands. the creations were marvelous, awed by the color & composition, sealed away like a secret, to be seen again when the proper time has passed.

i walked home in the early morning looking up at the sky. the stars were strong and i walked among them too. i felt myself spanning distances, existing bigger than my body. i haven't been wishing on any of them even though they know when i touch them with my requests. i have been quiet, learning how to ask & what to ask for. despite this, the gifts have been delivered, everyday.

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