foundations

i taped pieces of paper together to paint on. then painted over
what i painted; a constant transformation. like life: changing:
re-arranging, the same colors in different forms. the former
images peeking from beneath, a foundation for the future.

an inevitable wanting to move forward, to know how to unbind
from what has been known to a new mode. each moment is a
threshold of decision, to make or break a destiny, a living future;
filled with wonder, filled with the euphoria of possibility. a color is
selected. the skid of a brushstroke. the image alters.

my mind drifted to success. i thought of people who are successful.
i felt that all of them had strong support of their family. emotional,
financial. i wonder how i can create success on my own, seeking
to augment the sense of fragmentation that colored my bringing up.

this is when the animals came flocking to the scene: a bright fire bird
in the sky like a sun. a swan white with a knowing eye steady on me
as i found the horse hiding in the swirls of blue & purple. each with a
message, a memory. the support arriving at the time i was reaching
for it, my absolute refusal to believe my past could hold me away
from that which i am seeking, to raise myself, to break, to transcend.

intention for resolution: identify, release, upgrade. paint on, paint
over, slather, writhe, pop, sigh. becoming. i generate the direction,
being me fearlessly. waiting, fluids, timing. the rhythm of life, the
rhythm of breath. communicating the interior fresh alive, skin inside
out all here in paint, to coalesce matter to being with the strength of
desire.

become.