life, life, life!

this moon marooned me in a place where the multitude of my faults
came whispering their songs from hidden corridors, little black chunks
of coal coming out to pass through my consciousness:

"no one would miss me or even notice i'm gone, i don't matter"

"i don't do enough, i'm so vain, i'm frustrated i am not more: more successful, more loving, more helpful, doing more..."

thick tears and deeply i knew the voices weren't true,
but these places called out for the remedy. to be seen,
heard, touched. Exalted.

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equinox morning dance evolution: exchanged seasons, moved the spring deep into cells where the winter had already fainted. i danced those shadows weary, unlocked the gratitude with hips & fingers & neck & knees, praying with my body for the promises of the new year to be made manifest, to coax the energy to raise, to fill formless sketches of my imagination-desire into tangible reality. moved the blessings all around the Earth & through humankind with intention, that all of us feel awakened in the new strength & length of the days forward from this point, to thrust into the next quarter of 2011 illuminated with hope.

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Sunday was a summer day, so hot on skin i drove with one hand, the other behind my head with the elbow pointing up. i dressed like i did in Hawai'i & got tanned thru the windshield. i bought raw food bars & dehydrated kale & raw crackers & medjool dates & almond butter to dip them in & blueberries & oranges to go lay in the park under a giant tree & bask in the space of nature.

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i feel the pulse in my womb, my body making so many requests
aching pink wanting to tide the spring with someone. and
i feel this, compassionately, as its agony wanes with hours.
i understand.

even she knows but goes through the motions with a slight hope
her wiles will be quenched, the tugs of biological destiny a force
not to go unnoticed. but we do not fight. we gaze into each other
and make agreements to create together, in harmony, to use this
powerful, delicious cosmic sensuality for the benefit of others,
somehow. to lay a path & let the intensity race through that channel,
singing life, life, life!

southern spring

my body is aching to be touched, in a state of sustained, ardent springtide. i sit here with a cat at my feet, his tail gently whapping my right foot as my left foot lightly finds the fur on his back. a bird flutters from branch to branch in the thick of the bamboo trees, the sinking sun shimmering bronze through shifting gaps.

the light gently presses on skin like a touch of a lover, warming the earth & the air it passes through with cool soft winds that sigh, an easy sensuality that naturally rises from being nurtured, filled, taken care of; the euphoric season spiraling up into my body. an invisible force moves me. i have designed my life to listen & yield obedience to that deep inner knowingness.

my being tuned to the sweetness of everything. i feel the push of creation, the wanting to merge and bring forth new life; to reach utterly those places within that are least touched, that send pulsing communications of yearning, pleading for the way to be made.