naturally,
i'm moved to remain inward on this beautiful day. coming back to myself from days of frantic socializing, being out in the world, casting out nets for new directions & opportunities. a day to stop, to eat root vegetables.
the stars are within tonight - i feel everything.
the day launched in joyousness, filled with anticipation for the activities that would fill it. an intense need to focus was revealed; many things have been jumping in front of me pulling for my attention. focused on the tasks: research, e-mails, meditation, talks, time management, time for music, time for work, time to write. an enormous endeavor to push through low tides of energy & interference to meet the needs of the day. the effort was met with reward.
i hugged someone who needed it, generous with the warmth ample within, easily poured from me. sharing this way felt useful, as if i was born for the simple task of giving.
the evening spent indulging in good food with sweet people, nibbling greens from the garden & hours in a kitchen cleaning, prepping & creating life filled food. the reggae bhakti music danced between mashers & tubs & glass and latex gloved hands. the creations were marvelous, awed by the color & composition, sealed away like a secret, to be seen again when the proper time has passed.
i walked home in the early morning looking up at the sky. the stars were strong and i walked among them too. i felt myself spanning distances, existing bigger than my body. i haven't been wishing on any of them even though they know when i touch them with my requests. i have been quiet, learning how to ask & what to ask for. despite this, the gifts have been delivered, everyday.
